Monthly Archives: October 2005

Have you ever held the power of life and death in your hands?   Last night I did… I saw *****… Seeing him brought up a whole miriad of feelings, not the least of which was the desire to take … Continue reading →

In a study of 200,000 ostriches over a period of 80 years, no-one reported a single case where an ostrich buried its head in the sand.   A cough releases and explosive charge of air that moves at speeds of … Continue reading →

Ive decided its time to make more changes…   Im honestly not sure where to start though… There is just so much that needs to change… I am going to start with people though… Thankfully I have already started without … Continue reading →

I have to wonder just how possible it is to ever truly know another person…   There are times I am completely blown away by the realisation of just how little people I have known all my life actually know me… Even … Continue reading →

I now remember what it is that has me so scared to go back to sleep…   The dream that terrified me is something I cannot talk about in detail… It is enough to say that my father and issues … Continue reading →

Oh God, where to start…   The first time I woke up this morning, I was ready to rush down to the doctors (or the nearest chemist) to take a pregnancy test… God only knows why… But in short it … Continue reading →

I wish I hadnt done it…   I wish I hadnt killed my baby… I cant explain why I keep thinking about it so much right now… Maybe its because my baby would have now been anything up to about … Continue reading →

Bit by bit this piece is coming together… 🙂 … Its all about just letting it sit and create itself…   Last night I was playing around with my new guitar, attempting to begin committing to memory where all of … Continue reading →

You know, I was just reading back over the piece I wrote in my last entry… And I have also skimmed over a few of the other recent entries…   Today, I dont even know who that girl is… Becuase … Continue reading →

Not one of my better pieces, but whatever… (Untitled)Why wont someone…Find my heart and save me?Save me from this living death?Draw me back out into the light?And stop the pain inside?Why cant someone…See who I really am?See beyond the fear … Continue reading →