Monthly Archives: March 2006

I cant even begin to express how happy I am about a very private aspect of my life right now!   The hope and the structure and containment it has given me is phenomenal… I am still trying to come to terms … Continue reading →

🙂 …   Will write this entry properly when Im not so tired… My eyes are closed even as I type this so Im hoping for no typos… Good thing I can touchtype huh? :p   Actually you know what? … Continue reading →

Ok, so here’s another cryptic entry for you…   Ive been thinking about my place in the life of the men I have truly loved… Men I have put myself completely aside for and devoted my life to… And I … Continue reading →

Tonight I met ‘lil jade’…   She was a gift from someone very special and I know that over the coming months and years I am going to grow to love her… *stops in an attempt to try and collect … Continue reading →

Once again it would seem that fate has stepped in an put a temporary halt to what I was going to do this weekend… Well, part of it anyway…   The events of Saturday night have completely changed my life… … Continue reading →

Violet bought herself a ring today…   It is very beautiful… It has a solitaire Amethyst set in 9ct yellow gold filigre` work…   She tells me it will help keep her safe and give her something to focus on… Something … Continue reading →

Ok, Im not sure how Im going to explain this…   Actually, Im not… Im not going to explain a single thing… So if you do make the mistake of grilling me on this, dont be suprised if, when pressed, … Continue reading →

Over and over and over again, I find myself returning to this journal wishing I could find the words to express what I am thinking and feeling right now…   Some of the information is classified because I fear judgement … Continue reading →

The long and the short of it is that I feel like I am surrounded by triggers lately…   I have no idea how I am going to sleep tonight… But at the same time I have no idea how … Continue reading →

Today has been quiet and peaceful…   Its been a time of real soul-searching for me… Things have just become so chaotic inside that if something doesnt change and soon, well, there wont be a soon to be chaotic or … Continue reading →