Monthly Archives: April 2009

I wonder what would happen if I told the TRUTH? The WHOLE truth… I wonder what would happen if I MADE something happen? If I walked into that cafe tonight and FORCED a reaction… Not just from him but from … Continue reading →

I just dont know how to be okay right now… I know I knew how to once… I dont know why I dont know right now… I just dont… Maybe I forgot? I wish I could remember… Current Mood: Afraid … Continue reading →

Im so fucked up right now… The worst part is that I cant predict when its going to hit… And I cant find the ‘magic key’ which will either reveal what is really wrong or which will release me from … Continue reading →

I want to believe… Current Mood: Sad and afraid to believe… Confused…Current Music: Quiet sobbing…

Just when I thought I had sorted it all out, the whole world gets tipped on its head and shaken about…   Something huge just happened (which I refuse to ellaborate on) and now I dont know anything for sure … Continue reading →

It feels so strange coming in here now…   I feel so guarded… I feel as though it is dangerous to tell my truths and to be emotionally honest and unguarded in here…   I also feel rage…   Im … Continue reading →

I have made a lot of major decisions over the past 24 hours…   And even more over the preceeding days, weeks and months… I will eventually talk about at least some of them, but right now, its time to … Continue reading →