Monthly Archives: August 2006

Last night everything went nuclear…   There was pain on both sides and it was everywhere to the point that at one stage we were both drowning in it… Emotional honesty and integrity were so difficult to maintain, but it … Continue reading →

Ive worked it out!   Its not just the pain of a current situation I am not able to deal with… Its a massive double standard and what would appear to be an escelation of the original problem… And its … Continue reading →

There exists in my life right now a concept I have been struggling with in a huge way lately…   The bottom line is that I have to find a way to deal with it… The question is ‘How?’… And … Continue reading →

Almost a week ago now I went back on my lithium…   I dont know if that was a good idea or not… I dont even know how much longer I will be able to force myself to keep taking … Continue reading →

For the past few days I have felt as though I am wandering around in a fog without direction…   I feel so lost…   Current Mood:  Lost and wandering… Floating through life, afraid to make any sudden moves lest … Continue reading →

Life, as always is challenging….   BUT… In a lot of ways its never been better than it is right now…   More details soon…   Current Mood:  Happy and right where I belong… Current Music:  Tv on in the … Continue reading →

Sometimes there simply are no simple reasons for the choices we make…   It took a hell of a lot to survive what I used to do… Even just to get to a point where I could do my first … Continue reading →

The fallout from making my resignation from work official is coming thick and fast…   Now that I know there is no longer a need to stay braced and ready so that I can go in and do another shift at a moments … Continue reading →

And so it would seem that Amethyst has found her Soulmate…   One who is worthy of not only her lack of contempt but of her respect… One she is willing to be bound to forever… One who seeks not … Continue reading →

What the hell is wrong with me?!   Why cant I shake this horrible heaviness today? Why cant I simply decide my way out of this? Why cant I feel anything I feel? Where has it all gone and how … Continue reading →