Monthly Archives: May 2006

Tonight I find myself at a major crossroads…   The choices I make right now have the power to effect everything…   Current Mood:  Ready Current Music:  My Immortal – Evanescence

I expect a lot from the people who really count in my life…   No, excuses… No justifications… No anything… Simply a statement of fact and an acceptance of what is…   Current Mood:  Thoughtful Current Music:  Tv on in … Continue reading →

Almost all day today I have felt really flat…   I am assuming that a low has hit… Not a major one, but still enough to have me exhausted and just feeling generally sad about everything and nothing all at … Continue reading →

I find myself wading in deeper and deeper, seemingly with no real fear of the possible tidal wave that could swallow me whole at any given moment…   Why no fear? Have I finally lost it? Have I just ceased … Continue reading →

Wow! Its been ages since I logged an entry in here…   I have written so many draft entries and scrapped them its not funny… But a combination of them not really being what I wanted to say and feeling … Continue reading →

The backpain this morning was so excruciating that I wanted to scream…   For over half an hour, no matter what I did, or how I positioned myself, I just couldnt budge it… I was in so much pain I just didnt … Continue reading →

Im too tired to go into it in detail or analyse it properly right now… But its over…   I finally walked away 😦 …   More later, after I have had some sleep…   Current Mood:  Sad and grieving … Continue reading →

Well, the confrontation has come and gone and I have no idea of what I want or where things stand between us anymore…   I simply cant remember anything at the moment because I feel so emotionally overwhelmed… My whole … Continue reading →

Today I am saying ‘Goodbye’ to a friend I thought I would love and have as a part of my life for the rest of my life…   I am both sad and relieved… I suspect this has been a … Continue reading →

Addicted   Its like you’re a drug Its like you’re a demon I cant face down Its like Im stuck Its like Im running from you all the time And I know I let you have all the power Its … Continue reading →