Monthly Archives: July 2008

Well, today I made it official…   After I finished erasing the potentially dangerous journal entries from my last anonymous Space, I have re-opened it with a whole new focus… Im not sure how many Spaces that makes now… 9, … Continue reading →

Yesterday I managed to clear out the whole shed all by myself… 🙂   It felt so good to finally achieve something I set out to do… On the day I set out to do it… And how I set … Continue reading →

Well, today makes the second day in a row that I have had more than two showers in a day…   I have only just gotten out of a boiling hot shower, and already I feel ready to go and … Continue reading →

Right now I dont know if I know ‘up’ from ‘down’…   I feel so strongly… But the only person I have to measure my sanity (or lack thereof) by believes I am ill again… Is He right? Or is … Continue reading →

I dont know what to write in here today…   I am having a lot of trouble stabilising my core sense of self and I am really struggling with self-esteem issues, insecurity, and obsessive thought patterns… No, its not nice… … Continue reading →

I now remember why I dont usually read back over my journal entries once I have written them…   It scares me…   It scares me because in amongst all of the pain and the insanity are some frighteningly lucid … Continue reading →

Last night at about 3am He came through for me…   After 2 hours of crying quietly on my own, and trying desperately to find a way out of the insanity, I finally found the courage to wake Him up and … Continue reading →

I am in so much trouble…   I am completely alone and I cant get back down… I want to scream… I want to tear off all of my skin… I have tried cutting… I tried to verbalise how I … Continue reading →

What would make a person who wasnt hiding something behave as if they were?   That is the question I have before me right now… Its a question of trust… And frankly, why should I? If others are being fed … Continue reading →

Sometimes I dont know what Im doing…   I think I know what Im doing and why, but when it comes down to it, I really have no idea… Today is a perfect example… *sigh*…   Current Mood:  Confused and … Continue reading →