Monthly Archives: September 2006

Well the court date for the taxi driver has come and gone and I am still none the wiser…   I do not know if the DNA tests returned results that were going to be of any help as evidence… … Continue reading →

Failure and so soon into the task… 😦   My Master would assert that the whole task is actually geared toward training as opposed to an out and out demand for perfection… And I understand this… I really do… But my problem is … Continue reading →

It would seem that amid all of the chaos there now exists a task that will require concentration and vigilance of the most intense kind…   For one month (well, until the end of October), the word ‘No’ is forbidden … Continue reading →

I just dont know what is going on inside of me anymore…   Its all chaos and I dont understand how or why it is happening… I also have no idea of how to make it stop… All I know … Continue reading →

As I was publishing that last journal entry, I had a momentary mental flashback to past entries…   And what suddenly became clear to me was nothing short of disturbing… I suddenly realised with extreme clarity, that everything has changed… … Continue reading →

Today I feel restless…   It is true that I am in quite a bit of pain and that I am also getting my period… But this thing goes beyond all of that too… Its like this awful writhing feeling … Continue reading →

(As yet untitled)   Well I got it… and you want it But you cant have it… Its mine! You wanna taste it… But you’ll waste it Its only a matter of time   Baby I can see Right into … Continue reading →

I dont like being a girl today…   I dont like being me today…   Today I feel more like a commodity than a person… I feel hunted and afraid… I feel like I exist purely to fill the needs of others … Continue reading →

At what point do you draw a line in the sand and say ‘This far and no further’?   I find myself constantly asking myself that very question… And sadly, its a question I simply dont have an answer for… … Continue reading →

I am heading in a different direction with the way I am looking at dealing with the out of control feelings inside of me right now…   I am so very grateful that for most of the time I am … Continue reading →